SO. It's uh...

it's been a while


Stuff's been... well, busy would be an understatement. Heinous, perhaps. So at the beginning of August, Ghost enlisted with the military, with a ship date of 3 weeks later. Not a whole lot of time to prepare for him to leave. For those of you who haven't been here before, I tend to lose most of my mobility in winter (the time when he'll be gone). This year my body's indicating mid-October, hopefully loosening up enough to go see him graduate in early November. He *might* come home for part of Christmas break. Otherwise... I probably won't be seeing him until February :< Even then there's no guarantee, they might just send him straight to his next duty station and leave me to move everything up to him ~_~ which, it being February... I won't exactly be capable of doing.

I have a doctor's appointment at the beginning of October. I'm going to try and get diagnosed while he's away. If I'm successful, the military has a program they can put me on that will ensure that we'll never be very far from eachother or a military base that has the care I'll need.

So for the past month and a half I've been doing all the stuff he does: the cooking, the errands, the cleaning I can't usually do, all with varying (and increasing) levels of excruciating pain. The upside is this will at least make it easier to get diagnosed -_- I've been working less as the weather gets colder, mostly because I can't. Since I stopped smoking pot in July, I've definitely been feeling the effects of the weather earlier than I usually do. Last year the pain was worse than it had been the previous year, with me almost completely unable to move by February, even with a gram a day, so I'm not sure how long I'll be able to do much of anything mid-November.

I know I don't make a huge deal out of my birthday, mostly because it doesn't really matter, but it saddens me that he won't be around for mine this year. Probably because he also wasn't around for our anniversary, either.

Sadfox