Messages from the Universe

Last night I had a dream, that FORTUNATELY, shied away from the recent trope of 'hey, let's panic in my dreams!' I wouldn't say my sleep was restful, as I only got maybe 5 hours, but that's more than I've had in a while. I've been on edge for a little over 8 months straight, which has been wearing on me, both mentally and physically.

The dream I had last night, while it was largely dissimilar from every other dream (that wasn't a message), was very clear in its meanings, clear enough that I didn't need to be awake to decipher it.

I won't type the whole thing out, because it probably won't make sense to many of you, though it was quite clear to me. But the message itself...



I have always, ALWAYS, been able to do things that others can't, and/or won't. I have often been derided for them, and this was most blatant in highschool. While I've always gotten shit for what I do and don't do, those people, in the Grand Scheme, are few. There have been hundreds, literally thousands of haters over my lifetime so far, and as I get older, they begin to either convert or be overwhelmed by the people that love me. I've always had people that have alternately been my friends, then hated me, then came back with their tail between their legs, then snapped at me and ran away. In some, the cycle repeats forever. In others, when they come back? They realize they were wrong all along.

The people who hate me or hold things against me either do so for fun, for their own ego, or something else I cannot fathom. I will spend my whole life wondering why and never having answers. Many of these people will have power over me, and use that to their advantage. I have to find my own way to overcome them.

But my compassion for other people and for both the mysteries of life and their answers means that I will always find true allies, and I will always be able to see things and people as they are, despite the masks they wear. This is both a gift, and a curse, because so, so so many people have bared teeth at me or fled upon realizing I can See them, not as they present themselves, but as they Are.

But when I find people who love me, who know where I belong... It's so blatantly obvious where I'm supposed to be.


NOW WHY COULDN'T I HAVE GOTTEN THIS MESSAGE YEARS AGO, UNIVERSE?!


Key points of my dreams:

• I found a bag of runes near a pile of slave's clothing. There were multiple sets of  runes on various materials (orange stone, bone, porcelain, dark wood) in a Crown Royal bag*. I withdrew a few runes, Isa and Ehwaz. Every time I drew a rune from the bag, it was one of these two. I got frustrated and thought that all of the ones in the bag were these two, but I dumped them out only to find that the sets were complete. 
• A snobby, bitchy upperclassman-type girl decided she wanted a rivalry or something with me. I mostly ignored her, but she insulted me every chance she had, every time she saw me. When I finally retaliated, she made it known she was in a position of power over me.
• I was in her class despite the school being organized by skill level, not by age or actual education level.
• Mollena told me when the aforementioned girl insulted me and I tossed one back 'you don't want to piss her off, it will get you nowhere' I told her that even if it was detrimental to what I was trying to accomplish, I wouldn't let her treat me that way. 
• When I retaliated, the whole rest of the class besides Snob-face and two of her friends stood up for me. I looked at their faces and saw my loved ones and my best friends.
• I left the school in the TARDIS, only to come out in the middle of the Amazon Rainforest.
• I was never alone in my dream. Ghost was forced by the sunrise to vanish and go home, and I would have to travel through the river to see him again**
• While I was being led through the Amazon River, the natives adored how I helped them despite not speaking their language. As usual, I 'understood' but could not truly understand. 
• They were showing me the way to the village, and I stopped along the way to help them with what needed doing. I took the fish off their lines for them and baited them, despite the danger (most of the fish were piranha)
• When we arrived at our destination, they showed me where the path continued. 'This is the Valley of the Moon***, only those deserving are allowed here. Your home is further up the mountain, with the Jaguars****. We'll go at night, they've been expecting you. Here, stay in the hut built by Edison in the meanwhile. You are in good company' With so many references to aspects of myself, I knew immediately that I was meant to come there

*my first set of runes were on plain, unglazed porcelain given to me by my mother in a Crown Royal bag
**There is a festival dedicated to the separation of two lovers. I've linked to my favorite graphic representation
***I share the name of a moon goddess, so lonely that upon finding a man she loved, she put him in an eternal sleep in a cave to wait for her until she could visit him.
****Genetic testing has shown me to be strongly Columbian